5-19-08

Well he got his first shot today and boy he was kranky the rest of the day. The entire day he was unhappy. Everytime I tried to talk to him or hold his finger he pushed it away and started to desat. He never does that. He is always highsatting when I talk to him. He did not want anyone talking to him or touching him. I hope it won't be like this every time he gets a shot. That is every Monday, Wednesday and Friday. It broke my heart. I felt so bad for him. So when I went to Kangaroo hold him tonight it took him a while to be ok with it. He was kind of all over the place today with his oxygen levels. The entire time I was holding him he was squirming and pushing and grabbing at me. I had red marks in my chest from where he was pushing his knees into me. His levels were low when we first started then came up and stayed ok for a while. Then he would bounce back and forth on how he was doing. He then highsatted for a little bit longer and then dropped to where he was just not doing very well so we put him back in his bed. I got to do my whole time holding him so I was happy. I felt so bad for him. He moaned and groaned and when we moved him back to his bed he started crying. He cried when we got him out and then when we put him up. He does not liked to be moved, that is for sure. I hope tomorrow is better for him and he is more comfortable. Oh my mom did get to hold him though. The nurse got everything ready and then let her be the one who took him out of the incubator and put him in my hands. She was so excited. She has been having to life my wheel chair so much in and out of the truck, she has managed to give herself bruises on her legs from where it hits her. I am going to have to buy her a day at the spa lol. Anyway, hopefully tomorrow will be a better day for him. I just want him to feel comfortable and safe.